well hello, this lil place will be just to recount my way of coping, how i discovered it, and how i have and will experience with it in the future, so without any longer, time to try to explain it as good as i can, so, how did i discover that i found a great deal of calm and serenity when pet regressing, well it was mostly by luck, i used to see post about puppygirl stuff and sure it didn't look bad, but i never had the intention of experiencing with it but, one, day, at the cafeteria, after finishing eating before any of my friends at the table, i put my platter to the side and crossed my arms before setting my head on them, resting for a bit, and out of nowhere, one of my friend just started to play with my hair, and sure, it felt nice, so i didn't say anything, and let her do it, and then playing with my hair became more like petting something, and i felt so calm, every problems went away, it was so peaceful, but at one point we did need to get out of the cafeteria at one point, but as we went out of the cafeteria i still felt the calm, and i struggled to talk, i just couldn't, my friend group got a bit scared as i couldn't speak well, but it slowly went away and i felt normal after a few minutes, but from that point on i was obsessed by feeling that again, the second time it happened was with a friend, i hadn't seen him in a while, and we decided to spend a few days together, he showed me around the city and we spent a lot of the time just lounging at his place because it was way too hot outside, at one point, i had a panic attack cause by disphoria, and he just.. took me in his arms, and comforted me, so nicely, and he pat my back and my head, and sure i was crying, but it just felt so peaceful, i felt safe in his arms, my ability to talk went away again, but i didn't mind, i just felt good, i hadn't felt this good ever, this is, in all my memories, the best and calmest feeling i ever felt, it was perfect, he just cared for me, i wish i could be here for him too, take care of him, he deserves to feel good, and i wish i could help him with that, but im so scared to be too pushy and that we stop ttalking again, last time that happened, we were barely chatting for 3 years, it felt like torture, thing is, he is pretty obsessed with some ex of him, but i can't really do something about that, i just wish i could help him.

nevertheless this, simpleness of mind, this calm, is addictive, and for now a few years, it's been the best thing i ever felt in so long, and i try to explore it and feel it on my own without another person being involved, but that has amounted to no results, at least not much, but i found out that just hanging around with a muzzle is pretty nice, i modified it to make it fit my face better and plan to just, do a lil further diy on it



AND i jusst noticed that this is NOT the muzzle i use or have modified :[ forgot to get some pictures of the actual one as the one above was too small